One Seeking: Where do I begin?

One Seeking: Where do I begin?: "My how time flies? One day you are sitting at your grandmother's breakfast table eating her famous 'silver dollar' pancakes with homemade s..."

Where do I begin?

My how time flies?  One day you are sitting at your grandmother's breakfast table eating her famous "silver dollar" pancakes with homemade syrup and the next day you find yourself widowed after a short six years of marriage.  How did I get here?  How could this have happened?  I waited until I was 3 months shy of thirty years old to get married because I did not want to wind up in a situation like my parents and so many others find themselves; divorced after twenty years of marriage.  I thought I had escaped the odds of divorce but instead I found myself hostage to the statistic of widowhood.  There was one more statistic that did not escape my situation.  My son was now fatherless.  Wow!  The odds were better for divorce than the premature and unexpected death of a spouse.  So what next?  How does one pick up the pieces of a carefully orchestrated life that suddenly falls apart?  The answer I'm afraid is not so simple.  The control I once thought I had over my life had suddenly slipped through my fingers while I wasn't looking.  It's funny that I thought I had any control over the events that shaped and continue to shape my life and my character.  How utterly foolish and arrogant to presume we alone can  navigate the turbid waters that we tread.  There is a force, or should I say forces, that control the currents in our lives and no matter how hard we may try to swim upstream or fight the undertow, we cannot make it to the shore until we stop treading, relax and exhale.  This is really where the story begins. 

To be continued...